There is now just over 1 week before I leave. I am cautiously excited. Maybe most people would be jumping for joy at the prospect of an around the world adventure only days from reality, but my excitement remains somewhat reserved. There are goodbyes that I still need to get through, I’m leaving behind important people that will be extremely hard to be away from. The reality that I’m going to be gone for nearly 6 months is hitting home, and this is getting more difficult for me. Also, this is my first totally solo international voyage and India as a first stop is somewhat intimidating. What if something bad happens to me? I’m not afraid to admit that I’m a little scared. Plus, as a girl who loves to travel, I sure HATE flying. I find it terrifying and unnatural. The 23 hour journey from Vancouver to Delhi is going to suck in a big way, it’s hard to look forward to over 19 hours on a plane (plus a 4 hour layover in Beijing, but at least then I’m on solid ground!). I think it’s about time someone hurried up and invented a teleporter!
But that’s the negative stuff...it’s easy to wallow in that. I’m reminding myself of the adventure that’s just around the corner, the experiences I’ll have, the people I’ll meet, the places I’ll get to go. It’s always hard to be away from the ones you love, but those who count will still be here for me when I return. Of course I’m scared to be alone, scared that something will go wrong, but that’s a possibility at any point in life, I could stay in Canada and get hit by a bus and die tomorrow. I’m smart and have good instincts and it’s that I’m going to have to trust, along with my belief that most people in the world are good. I can’t hide away from my fears, no one ever accomplished anything by doing that. So I will say my goodbyes, even though I’ll probably cry. I will get on that plane, even though I’ll probably be nervous and hate every second of it. I’m ready to face my fears and I’m excited to overcome them. Goodbye Whistler, my next post will be from somewhere in India.Wish me luck!